I’m told my oldest niece is just like me. Apparently, she likes everything I like and follows in my footsteps. Oh dear God! I hope that’s not true, because I’m a space cadet. I can never get things done. I start projects and leave them half way. I waste a lot of time staring into dead space (if I have the time). My schedule is overflowing that I don’t know if I’m coming or going half the time. So, do I hope my niece is like me? I most certainly hope not. I hope she has a good head on her shoulders.
I know she wants to write a book. Well, my book is sitting there. Somewhere. Space cadet here just jumped from writing a book to knitting to writing a play to coloring to writing a blog, and let’s not forget my HMS model that’s sitting and waiting patiently for me to show up. So, I have been thinking about myself and how to resolve my “spaciness”. I had a cousin tell me to make a to-do list and the thing is that I don’t like getting confined by lists. They are effective, but I just don’t like them. So, I hope my niece uses lists and can handle them. There’s gotta be some hope for her. I look at myself and wonder how I got the way I did. Well, I don’t know. Years of craziness, I suppose.
Did I digress? What else is new? Back to to-do lists – I was recently told that if I kept my lists super short, then I can accomplish more and still feel like I’m moving forward without being overwhelmed. This might work. The past week I’ve made micro lists. Just one or two things on my list and I feel great to strike them off. No more long lists that I stare at and feel like my world is spinning out of orbit, out of control. I suppose, I sincerely want to make a change in my life; with this blog and with my writing. I have had time to think about this over the weekend. I want to blog more. I want to work on my book. I want to finish my play. That’s a lot of “want”. I thought that I would wait ’til New Year’s to make a resolution. But then I don’t believe in New Year’s resolutions. If there’s something that needs to be done, it needs to be done now. So, I have a new resolution – to just go out and do it, little at a time. Let’s see how this space cadet fares with that.
My schedule has been crazy all the way up to this past weekend. I thought I would start my baby steps yet again (I’ve tried before and failed) but sometimes, you just have to try over and over and over. Right? So, I did. Baby step number one: I have a Facebook page for this blog. I’m so impressed at doing that. For a lot of you, it may seem like nothing. For me, it’s a big step. I had to do the research on how to get a FB blog page that says “Personal blog” because it’s not intuitive. I stuck with it and got it done.
Maybe now I can make monthly personal resolutions and check my progress. Will I complete anything? Anything at all? I don’t know. But we’ll see. This space cadet is lost but I feel, I’m getting found. Space cadets are constantly shifting and constantly on unknown missions. A year ago, I was working on a totally different book. Wrote everyday. Then every other and then it dwindled to once in 2 weeks to now, can’t recollect when I last wrote about it. I can’t recollect the word count when I stopped. Stuff got in the way. I need to turn off and empty my schedule so I can put things that matter. So, slowly but surely, I’m starting to say “no”. I getting back to being in my terrible 2s. Am I moving forwards or backwards? We’ll see. Here’s to a new resolution and to a new me!
Hope you all are well and catch you all soon.